My term test are coming... argh... i feel so sloggish.. dont even feel like study.. so exhausted... so slacking... and its jus next week.. i reali hope tt i can do well.. well.. i cant always hope and wished tt it come true.. of course i muz put in effort... todae is my last slacking dae.. from tml onwards.. i am going to study all the way... my insomnia is back again..(i dont noe whether i spelt tt correctly...i suck at english...) hope its going to be a short one.. i cannot afford to hav one at this period of time.. cause my term tests are coming... i guess the "knockout pills" will do the job... well.. ppl sae tt its nt good... but look at yesterdae... i was sitting at the living room and staring at blank space.. hoping tt i will go to slp.. but i did nt.. tears jus welled out of my eyes(i did nt cry -_-") i wasnt tinking abt any stuff either... jus hoping i will go to slp.. and it seems to me tt i wasnt even tired during todae's class... btw.. i hav a bad news... our target classmate has been found... A GAY!!!.. at last.. after 4 weeks of torture... and somemore i tink he dont hav much friends... and furthermore... he is from mynmmar... OMG... he keep touching me.. tt is so like disgusting... but i cannot do anything to him lehz.. jus dont go near him lo.. no choice.. ren more few weeks... then i dont tink i will see him tt often anymore.. maybe i treat him well among all the other ppl and i got meat... tt's y... YUCKS!.. tinking abt it makes mi wan to vomit my dinner... I AM STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! furthermore... using this topic here.. i will like to talk more abt good treatment and friendship... a friendship isnt established jus because u got tt person's contact number in the phone book, talked to tt person more than 50 sentences and gone out at least on one outing... tt isnt friendship... if tt is friendship.. then i tell u... i dare to sae at least half of bedok are my friends.. all the uncles and aunties from shops downstairs my hse.. most of the stalls at the 85 market are all my friends... furthermore even hw well u treat the person.. the person will nt even noe anything... the person dont even cares.. ppl will onli care when wad they took for granted is gone.. anyway.. its nt tt i wan to take this choice.. i am the willing party.. ppl choose to ignore mi.. so whos problem isit nw? ppl ignore mi and its my problem? i jus dont see the sense in it.. come on..u noe me.. i am nt tt type of goody guy tt will talk slowly and nicely over this sick topic... but jus look at tt... i dont tink i can even call it "i tink she still treats u as a gd friend".. come on... i tink ppl from fred's class also on better terms wif mi than her lo... who cares abt being wif her the rest of my life.. when u can even sustain the basics of the basics.. a friendship.. as i said.. a relationship is something which is jus a higher level of friendship... like i care tt i will like being wif her the rest of my life... Between hate and love.. it is onli a thin line drawn.. i am nt tt kind tt will also rite all the nice nice things.. sae it in a nice manner and so on... i am so tired.. so tired... i dont dig literature, cant rite like u.. words contain meaning... nw onli left u onli.. the rest are all gone nw... even the one tt was added in recently is going to be gone soon.. trust my instincts... take a look her... jus for example.. i will give u an option, to go out wif eileen or to go out wif me.. who would u choose.. u can onli choose one.. cannot choose both... obviously u noe the option in ur heart.. this is all abt prioritiers.. she has her own great friends.. i hav been waiting for her the whole evening... jus to sae hi... (once again.. this is abt treatment.. u treat the person well.. the person may nt treat u well back in return.. i dont give a damn abt returns.. but y cling on to a one sided friendship.. as i said.. both of them are like blood sisters.. both the same kind one.. start new life and jus move on...) i guess i cannot count on her anymore.. like i used to last time.. as long as tt one dae the misunderstanding is nt cleared.. there will always be a gap between us... u can sae tt i am tinking too much... but to put this simply... hav u ever tot abt this b4? i am such an idoit...
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