Wow... exams are coming.. this week is project week and pratical week.. hahaha...(the school plans it this way so tt students dun absent themselves during the last week of school) muz study hard already.. todae is my last dae of slacking.. so here i am blogging the last time.. TILL THE EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!... hahahaha... nth to rite also.. so sian... well i am quite proud of myself todae...^_^ hehehe... my internet and computer fundamentals got 25/30... hehehehe.. my ckt quiz got 46/50... hehehehehe.... but one thing i still cant get over it... Ouyang tt shithead... he jus anyhow do... got higher than me... waaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... while i put in so much effort inside... i placed the nudging text and scrolling mouse... songs tt u see at my blog.. i fixed them for about one whole dae... and yet ouyang complete his pages jus in one dae... perharps maybe he got a video and i dun hav it.. tt's y his higher then me.. sad case.. sobs ="( (but nvm.. the difference is onli one mark... lolx... but i still cant take it!!! argh!! jus let me complain!!!!b4 i go crazy) well.. first of all.. i am all alone now... in my life once.. i got 3 great friends... one is currently studying.. i dun blame her... studies always come first... the second one is gone wif the wind... in a relationship and dun care abt her friends anymore... tt one is already dead in my heart.... reali hope i wont see her again... and the third one.. within my grasp... nv talk nv see... i am jus an extra... jus for tt moment when she needed me.. we talked like there was no tomorrow.. anything and everything under the sun.. but ever since poly started... our conversations jus dun last.. nt even for 5 mins... i seriously tell u... sometimes i get so turned off and angry tt u close the conversation when i am talking to u.. jus like rite now... tt's is one of the reasons i loathe talking to u recently.. 1. u dun respect wad i am trying to sae to u....2. u are nt listening to wad i am trying to tell u.... 3. wad i sae can be lost in the process.. in the end.. i also dunno whether u noe wad i am talking.. nv reply one... so disappointed... i tot i hav found someone to reali pour my troubles to... but its over... somethings are better nt to be told... things are to be kept best to urself.. once u tell one... the word wil spread... no matter how trustworthy ur friends are... its nt ur friends who tell the word... (jerome.. i bet tt u muz be complaining or trying to picture ur self under the 3 ppl.. lolx.. pray hard then.. u will nv guess who they are.. seriously.. i regretted giving u the address) DISAPPOINTEDDDD!!!!!!!! hiaz... so... from now on.. maybe keeping everything to myself will solve the problems.. need no friends... jus walk alone to pursue ur dreams... anyway.. they seem to make use of me... every single one of them.... jus like tt dae eston reminded me... i was waiting for a cab at the bus stop.. cause the bus stop dun hav the bus tt i wan to take home.. but eston do... while walking to the bus stop.. i saw a woman carrying alot of stuff... and she was waiting for a cab also.. suddenly this question flashed across my mind... if i wait a cab at the bus stop.. wouldnt i be cutting off tt woman's cab.. i mean she is carrying so many things..y dun i let her take first... anyway.. i am nt on a hurry to go home... but there is one sentence tt eston said made me tink abt it... if u let others... u are jus being cruel to urself.. cause if i let tt woman take tt cab first... wouldnt i miss a cab myself.. in the end.. i will hav to wait longer for anoher cab... anyway.. she wil nt recongnise u or sae thank you or be extremely grateful to u tt u allow her to take her cab first... tt is the bad point of view.. but come to tink back abt it.. using this anology... u can treat others well.. ppl may or may nt appreciated..i dun care whether its appreciated or nt.. as long as that person is happy... but when u need help nobody comes.. that is jus so fine.. i am nt trying to help others so tt i can rely on tt person the next time i need help... i jus hate the feeling of being used... ppl tt onli talk to u when u are bored... ppl tt onli sae hi if they see u... ppl tt onli come to u when they seriously need help.. and u jus give it all jus to help them... even if u stay up the whole nite to complete it... but does tt person noes tt? no... ok.. nvm... did the person appreciate wad u did? no.. maybe yes...(god bless him then).. ok.. now.. u need help.. all of them jus disappear.... i hate tt kinda of feeling.. it jus sux... i dare to sae... nobody... i haven seen anyone.... nv ever in my life... put in the same effort as i put in for the same person when i seek help... nv ever........ and i tot tt after we chatted on msn.. we would be closer... and u can be the first one.. but no... sometimes.. i wish i can jus throw away all my problems..or.. jus keep everything to myself.. let my eyes be the judge of character... keep my mouth shut and talk when onli needed to... i was so shocked tt i can dun talk to anyone when i am nt spoken to for one whole week... record rite? does tt noe me in secondary school.. i am nt like tt... well.. i like it this way... maybe it will be the way from todae on.. the new zihao...
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