NoOoOOoOOooO.. tml starts school again.. hiaz... sianz... once again.. another new weeks.. feeling the mondae blues.... sian ar!!!!! hiaz.... everybody is so busy.. hahaha... buried in project.. especially huiting.. i feel so sad for her... hiaz... cannot do anything to help her also.. so helpless.. *sobs*...(jerome.. if u wan to sae i got soft spot for girls.. or wadsoever... sae lo.. like i care)... NoooOoO.. i tink my tag board is spoilt and i dun noe wad to do abt it.. so lame.. my tagboard there shows page cannot be found... how!!!!????? noOoOoOo.. how sia!!! dead.... hiaz... now nt onli i feel tt we are on different wavelengths.. but i also felt tt u nv considered my feelings... all the while i hav been trying to help u... nt to get angry or nt to feel sad.. i get scolded by u... let u vent ur anger on me.. but wad do i get.. nth... then now u sae tt i dont even consider ur feelings.. well.. hav u ever considered mine in the first place.. i am jus some nobody in ur life.. maybe my approach is wrong.. but wad i am trying to do is to pinpoint the fault and make u forget the problem.. but all u tink is tt i am blaming u for everything.. i jus felt tt if u could forget all the small small things.. u can be a far more happier person... instead of being angry over it... tt is wad i feel... if u tink i am wrong.. then i am sry.. i guess i wont be talking to u anymore... since my words will onli make u angry and even more sad...
I'm Hugged On 8:11 AM

Hahahaha... todae me jerome and maurice go and watch "the Island".. The show is nice.. hahahaha.. but... its again.. a painful show.... the cutting and all the funny stuff... especially the grapling gun.. dang... it pierces through the skin and then open inside ur flesh..*ouch*..hahahaha... but its a nice show.. the effects are nice.. they make it v real... hahahaha... jus like in the near future... nth much happened todae.. jus tt i saw ting ting, ming kiat and wan zhen.. hahaha.. ting ting and wan zhen are doing well... look more pretty le wor.. haha... ming kiat looks good too.. hahaha.. going to slp lo.. nitez
I'm Hugged On 11:02 AM

Wow... these are odd daes... these few daes i keep getting flashbacks for the future... give u two typical example... last few nites.. when i slp.. b4 i had those odd nitemares..... i always dream of short flashbacks... like last time(v long time ago.. when i was in secondary school) i dreamt tt i was down there doing homework... and i was scratching my head v seriously... and when i took a closer look.. i noe its maths.. but i dun understand wad are all the numbers and all the stuff.. i dun understand most of the things... and when i looked at the answer, the book was nt printed properly, so some of the answers cannot be seen.. how i noe when todae i did my engineering maths... for chapter 5.. exponential and logarithimic functions... all these figures seem so familiar to me... and the answers are exactly faded away... same questions as those tt i dreamt abt... and jus now i was watching tv.. the 10pm show.. the one on channel U... there is one scene where the guy broke up wif her girlfriend.. and then the yang guang was hiding in his room waiting for him to come back... and they talked.. i also dreamt of tt.. i remembered v clearly.. especially the closet in the background.. wow... hahaha... happened alot of times already.. sometimes i am kinda of shocked myself.. but these are rather insignificant and random events.. i cant reali figure out these things sometimes.. its jus so random and vague.. i cant reali make it out.. sometimes its ppl talking to me over some senseless stuff... and i dunno when is tt going to happen... its jus seems tt the particular event is so familiar... and u had seen everything somewhere... but u jus cant figure out where u hav seen it.. hahaha... its jus so eerie sometimes... send the chills down my spine.. cause sometimes unpleasant events also happen and some actually came true... i reali hope they dont.. of course.. but overall.. most of my dreams are kinda of absurd.. LOLX... doing all the funny things... and all the impossible things tt i can ever tink of... i even dreamt tt i was a star player in the NBA... LOLX.. can u believe tt??? hahahaha... well... these few daes are all pure crap.. nth happen so nth to sae lo.. LOLX.. simple rite?? hahaha.. going off le.. i hate thursdae!!! so long.. and all the lessons are so stupid..... argh!!!!... but nvm!!!.. thursdae mean tt fridae is coming!!!! yeah! i am going out wif chunfeng and freddie.. both their birthdaes... i tink i am going to be broke already.. sad... LOLX.. then saturdae i tink jerome they all also go and watch movie again.. hope tt jerome can return the money tt he owe me... sian.. but i dun noe how to sae it to him... i mean i dunno how to put it out to him to ask me to return me.. LOLX... slp le.. mummy come and chase me le...
I'm Hugged On 8:05 AM

Hahaha.. todae go back to school to visit mrs liew.. i am so glad tt she is so fine.. she is so happy to see us all.. hahaha.. so do we... we are so glad for her and her baby.. hahaha.. now her stomach even bigger than mine.. so we were down there talking and talking.. LOLX.. like gossiping session like tt.. LOLX... all the tais tais gather for their "social" talk.. LOLX... hahahahaha... pity i and dun jiu hav been dragged in to it.. hahaha..( but i also had my fair share of gossip too... heez...) ahahahahaha.... so glad these few daes... finally i am free from burdens tt i used to hav last time... there are always two side on a coin, in life, when negative things happen to us, we often look on the negative side solely... and nt tink abt wad other alternatives we have... like staying happy and disregarding wad happens to us.. hahahahaha... to look back.. i was so foolish to care so much abt how others feel abt me.. i mean seriously, in reality... u can treat tt person v well... but on the other hand... the person will jus take u for granted..(it always happen like tt) hahahaha.... at first i tot tt i cannot get over nt talking to u on msn... but looks like i am alrite nw... but i guess u are busy.. so i betta nt bother u... well.. i guess this kinda of life is taxing.. so jus take good care of urself and i will be contented.. hahahaha.. now all but one single problem.... i always got some stupid nitemare... its damn scary when u are asleep and tinking of the consequences...but when u wake up and come back to tink of it.. its so dumb, foolish, stupid and argh!!!!... yesterdae's dream was so funnie.... i dreamt tt we all went back to secondary school and there is a remedial lesson at 6pm<--- how is this possible??? ok.. so we reached school... when i reach the classroom... i see sylvester, pei hua, and jie sheng(i tink i dreamt of them cause they always reach sch the earliest... sry.. saraphina.. u are nt in this catergory..LOLX.. i reali hope u will next time..) and i was so shocked... do u noe wad i saw??? i saw THE THREE OF THEM PLAYING POKER AND GAMBLING!!... can u believe tt?? jie sheng gambling??? then after tt the rest of the class start appearing.. and one more thing i felt funnie is... there is nt a single girl turned up for the remedial lesson.. well...(galz from our class all chiongster one.. impossible nt even one single gal turned up) then after tt.. sylvester took my phone to play.. take photo and stuff... so i didnt bother abt him.. after tt i heard from jiesheng tt there is going to be no more lessons.. cause the teacher was sick and went home... and the third shocking thing... he actually asked us all the go zeyi's house to play!!!(jiesheng said tt) !!!!! so we all agreed and all proceeded to zeyi's house... and we played so madly... all of them suddenly go to the cold storage there and buy beer and all kinda alcohol... and everyone proceeded to his house and shout and drink like there is no tomorrow...(i can now see the reason y there are no girls.. and the most crazy one is jiesheng... okok.. i tink its kinda of hard to imagine... as u guys noe.. he stress over small little things... imagine the total opposite.. total opposite.. in my dream.. he stress over when to play next.. and all the impossible things tt u wont expect him to do.. he does it in my dream.. he even pierced 4 ear holes.. drinks alcohol and play like there is no tomorrow) he was shouting the loudest, drinking the most.. and keep taunting me to drink... of course.. i was so obessed wif the new game.. i dunno wad is tt game... then suddenly, in a blink of an eye, it was already v v v dark.. u cannot even see the moon.. and every single one is drunk... every single one... except for me.. then i wanted to call home to sae tt i am coming back now so as nt to let my parents worry... but i found out tt sylvester nv returned me my phone earlier... so i go over and shake him until he is sober.. then he said tt he left my phone in school classroom.. i was so shocked.. then i asked him to go and take it back for me.. but before i can finish my sentence, his knocked out.. so i have no choice but to go back to the school myself... its was so late tt there was no more buses.. so i took zeyi's bike and cycle.... how i noe i took a wrong turn and ended up in my primary school.. st. stephens primary.. i was so curious tt how the school has changed so i cycled inside... i parked my bicycle at the side of the road... and climbed over the fence... i was in the field.. i still remember tt there is a big tree in the middle of the field... it has a lot of entangling roots...(those that u will find in the middle of the mangrove swarm.. as the roots take in oxygen from the air, so its dangled in the air, since in the swarm the tree is submerged in the water...) i walked past the tree.. suddenly the wind picked up... and from a breeze, it turned stronger and stronger... all the leaves on the tree are swaying in all kind of directions... i keep sensing tt somebody is looking at me... suddenly.. i walked towards the tree to examine it.. to my horror.. something rolled out of the tree and to my astonishment... it was a rotting head.. i was so afraid tt i quickly ran away... however in the wrong direction... i ran towards the school building instead of going out... then i onli stopped when i reached the 2nd floor.. the wind has stopped... and i sat down to catch my breath... suddenly, the door slammed shut and broke.. i was so afraid tt i started running down... but everytime i go down a flight of stairs, i am still stuck at the 2nd level... i was even tempted to jump down straight to ground floor.. when i look out... towards the ground floor.. ready to jump, somebody grabbed me from the back.. i turned around and found no one there.. there was a chill down my spine and all my goosepimples had already risen... i jumped down from 2nd level and ran to find zeyi's bike.. when i reach the side of the road where i placed the bike.. i saw a shadow of a person sitting beside the bike.. i walked slowly towards the shadow, trying to make my most out of the dark lighting... and finally when i reached for the bike, he stood up and walked towards me... his arm was rotting and he tried to grab me and he has no eye sockets.. OMG... after tt i woke up.. wad a nitemare... i need sleep!!!
I'm Hugged On 8:02 AM

Hahahahahahahah.. so bored... so down here lo.. LOLX.. its seems to me like its a becoming a habit already...well.. wad can actually happen in one single dae? i guess nt much also.. hiaz.. todae the whole dae i was distracted by long lo.. he addicted to DOTA already.. looks like we are going to have another team mate wif us.. LOLX...( but i guess his reaction is still abit retarted.. LOLX... after i death ward him for abt 7 seconds... then he started to run....by tt time his already dead.. LOLX...actually i wan to buy radiance and rape him more.. but i went for dinner halfway.. and let him earn.. play somemore i may lose.. i then dun wan him to gloat tml abt his stupid victory.. LOLX...) wednesdae... wednesdae shall be the dae... where i will own!!.. i wanna see how good tt idoit is... sae until he like v pro like tt... hahahahahahaha.......... but i am nt exactly tt good also... sooooooooo... need to buck up also.. but actually.. who cares so much abt one stupid game... argh!! i am so distracted... i dun care.. after wednesdae i am nt going to play at lan shop anymore.. until the holidaes or something.. study, study, study!!!!!!!!!!! projects are also coming.. although nt like huiting and maurice... so many projects.. for maurice case.. i dun even noe whether its true.. LOLX..sianz ar.. cannot slp at nite.. everydae so tired.. reach home and wait till abt 11pm to slp... but how i noe... by 11am.. suddenly i felt v refreshed.. dun feel like slping anymore.. somemore like so stressed???????? suddenly all the numbers all will appear.. and it seems to me tt i cannot solve them no matter wad... wad's worse is i got a nitemare.. i dreamt tt i failed by 0.1% for continuously for 4 years.. tt means 4 years from now.. i am still a freshman.... can u believe tt??? and i failed because i am too tense... wry tt this will come out and tt will come out.. i even dig out my secondary books to read up... but no matter wad i do... i cannot pass... for the whole of 4 years... can u believe tt? and it was sooooooooooo real... cause i saw ouyang laughing at me... LOLX... he said something tt i will nv ever forget.. (btw.. i dunno y its him) but suddenly there was a bedok green gathering... and it so happened tt EVERY BODY TURNED UP... NT EVEN ONE MISSING.. EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN THE EXPRESS STREAM... EVEN BERNARD KAY.. TURNED UP... and suddenly they were talking abt their achievements... there are too many ppl talking.. but i onli remember a few ppl... jerome became a lawyer... and he has jus won a few big cases... talking abt current affairs... jie sheng became a pilot and promoted to captain..(kinda of miracle rite?? but i tink wad happens in the dream wont come true... rite?? LOLX...>_<) and then suddenly.. the attention turned to me... " so how.. zihao? wad are u doing now??? hahaha... y are u so quiet throughout the conversation..." and i actually said it v sadly..." i am taking my first year in mechatronics.. cause i failed 4 years... now is my fifth..." then suddenly.. ouyang.. laughed so loudly... and said... " wah lau eh.. zihao ar.. 4 years already still stuck down there ar??? i botak already(means tt his in NS) u still stuck down there ar??? suay sia.. looks like u reali love TP.. LOLX" and he laugh so loudly tt everyone at the place looked at me... suddenly every single person turned and laugh... all pointing fingers and saeing their own part of critisism... "aiyoh... loser sia.. stuck in such a low cutoff point for so long....", "LOLX... i tot ppl v good in secondary school one.. can teach ppl somemore...in the end still hao lian sia... now look at u... where are u now???", "omg... u are a total disappointment man... plz dun tell ppl u noe me when u go out and work.. oh.. i am so sry.. i forgot it is still ur FIRST YEAR IN TP.. since u are already stuck there for 4 years.. i tink u will kinda of continue.. until perharps... err.... the moon turn into cheese??*sadistic laughter*..." after tt i woke up le... can u actually believe tt??? i pespire so much tt the next dae my mother has to change the bed sheet for me...( i did nt pee in my bed..-_-"") this is even worst then all the nitemare abt horrors add up all together... i reali need another break real bad... i going to break down real soon... didnt noe talking to u on msn is a burden to u too... i am sry...
I'm Hugged On 8:01 AM

AIYAH.. SIAN LE.. Tml school starts again..once again.. another long and draggy week... aiyah.. dun hav tt kinda of motivation to study like in secondary school.. hahaha.. during secondary sch i look forward to each and every dae to go to sch.. hehe.. i jus dunno y.. its seems to me tt secondary sch life is so fun!!! hahahahahahaha.. reali reali miss secondary sch life... hiaz.. sian.. tml start the dae wif engine drawing.. so early and so boring.. teacher teach like lightning speed and expects us to learn everything in a snap.. then always lie tt whoever tt can hand in on time gets full marks.. in the end... FULL OF CRAP! LOLX.. hahahahhaa... hmm.... results all back le... nt bad!! hahaha.. i am rather contented wif themmm!!! hehe.. sry to keep saeing it... well... weekends over... once again supercharged!!! hahaha... well.. i dun tink i am going to rugby anymore... problems wif my specs.. i dun tink i can cope wif a cca btw.. my class all chiongster... how to balance.. hiaz.. sad case.. somemore i tink i need more time to study already.. syallbus getting more and more difficult.. sianzation!!.. i reali enjoyed myself this weekend.. cause i got no worries abt anything.. perharps a few...(who dont?) but at least majority of my friends turned for the betta and my results are nt bad.. hahahahahhaa.... so once again.... CHIONG AR!!!!! i muz buck up on my practical already....!!! dang.... always getting borderline passes and pulling down my overall... tired.. so tired... reali wish tt the vacation can come faster!!! that is when i can actually truly enjoy... hahahaha... jus like the o levels like tt.. but once again.. i got a feeling tt i will worry abt my results and the next year's syallbus.. well... life is nv ending of worries.. hahaha.. next time work also worry abt nt earning enuff to feed the house... worry abt nt being able to find a job... when u retire.. u wry abt ur grandchildren... well... finally i can reali sae tt u wil stop worrying when u finally step in to the grave.. LOLX... well.. its a fact tt this dae will come for everyone one dae... well... cut the craps... slp lo.. gd nite everyone...P.S: Jerome... if u tink my blog is girly... u can always hav the freedom nt to read... and its nt to impress girls for goodness sake... the music is from spirited away... and this is the onli skin tt is clean.. and i dunno wad other skins to get...
I'm Hugged On 7:28 AM

Hahaha... todae is fridae.. or to be exact.. saturadae morning.. i hav played the whole dae todae.. LOLX... so happy... playing a new game called conquer online.. LOL... hiaz.. sian lo.. fabian nv come up todae.. i kinda of expected tt to happen... he like v busy lo.. i tink one call from his friends and his going to skoot off already... LOL... hiaz.. sianZ.. i suddenly felt tt all my close friends hav all become strangers to me... there can onli be 2 reasons for this... one.. i have changed... two.. they have changed.. due to some factors tt are affected by me somehow or another.... dont u noe tt i actually wan to stay online so tt i can actually find chances to talk to u.. i wan to go back to before... where we were jus so happy... without doing much... even chatting online can be a happy thing.. but nw.. its totally different.. jus because something i said..... and the other one... i reali dunno wad to talk to u already lo... we both now on different wavelength.. jus when i felt tt i was close to getting to noe u betta.. i found out tt our distance widen.... sad case.... did he affect u so much...??? i reali wish we can always stay happy and innocent.. dunno anything but jus staying happy...
I'm Hugged On 10:26 AM

Hahaha.. finally.. all my results are back.. hehehehehe... well.. i am quite satisfied wif my results.. no complains.. LOL... nt no complains actually.. hahahahaha... maybe a little complains lahz.. hahahahahahahaha... hmm.. after this term test.. i tink i am somewhere in the middle of 4th or 3th place...(hopefully, i am third ba... hopefully... hahahahahahaha) i got 80/100 for my engine maths and 41/50 for my digital fundamentals.. now i seriously hope tt i can do well for my lab test... which i tink its already gone case.. LOL... finally.. a breather.. hahahaha... i was so worried abt it..maybe get to relax for a little while... hehehe.. but nt too long.. i jus suddenly felt so tired... term test already make me so tired.. final exam i dunno wad to sae already.. LOL.. from the looks of most teachers's face.. i dun tink i reali proud of myself.. cause seriously.. i tink tt this papers are considered easy compared to past year term test papers.. i hav to brace myself for the final year paper.. well.. miss S.. i guess ur prelims are coming.. so u betta work hard.. its finally here already.. i tink u can do it.. i give u my confidence.. hahahahaha..so dun wry too much.. jus dont push urself too hard ok?? anyways.. all the best for ur presentation tml huiting..hahaha.. i guess u can do it.. and dont worry abt ur econs test too much.. i guess u will do well.. and bao.. thx for ur encouragement... nw cheer up.. dun be too sad ok??? take care of urself.. hmm.. saturadae is coming.. going out wif jerome and maurice soon.. watch movie again?? hiaz.. u betta be punctual ok jerome.. bleach download finish already.. damn exciting now.. if u are reading this.. u betta come early this saturadae... going to slp soon le.. tml is fridae!!! hahaha... enjoy ur bala dae!!!! gd nite everyone..
I'm Hugged On 9:06 AM

SAD CASE!!!! i tink todae i fail my Digital fundamental lab test fail already.. OMG........................................ i cant even get the results sia.. sianZzz.. i totally suck at practical.. all the while.. in secondary school also... i tink i cannot get a1 for science also partly tt one lo.... siansation!!!.... hiaz.. i jus wanna complain sia.... y???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? tml the results of maths and digital fundamental are coming back.. the final 2 papers.. *fingers crossed*... hehehehehe... at least let my term test do well too..!.. getting late.. nites everyone... going to slp lo... *yawnZ*
I'm Hugged On 8:10 AM

Hiaz.. life is so sad eh???? everyone around me.. one by one.. are feeling so depressed... kinda of irony eh?? when i was sad... everyone kinda of happy and joyful.. nw i am alrite...... everyone around me is feeling depressed.. either one matter or another.... i reali hope to help.. but it seems to me tt i am jus a hinderance to them.. saeing all the unecessary stuff to them.. which may jus make them more depressed... i jus dunno wad to sae to comfort them.. cause i reali appreciate tt they were there for me when i was sad and down.. but nw.. i am unable to help them back in anyway.. i can onli stand there and watch helplessly.. the best i can do is to provide a listening ear for them... some will sae tt this is the best u can do.. but i dont feel tt this is enuff... i wan to help more.. when i am happy.. i wan my friends to be happy too... joys are meant to be shared... so i seriously hope tt they will once again smile and return to their cheerful selves!!! (huiting.. i seriously hope tt u can find ur thumbdrive... and i seriously wan to help u... i dont wan u to put all the blame on urself... cause nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes...... bao... i am still so confused wad is happening.. up rite till nw.. i onli noe tt u are depressed... but i will still be there to lend u a listening ear.. as for ting ting.. jus stay happy ok??? although i reali reali dunno wad to sae to u... but deep down.. i reali hope tt u stay happy....!) hiaz..hahahaha... todae finally.. my first test is being returned...! CKT!.. i was kinda of glad and relieved... although i am nt reali satisfied wif my results.... if i sae u all surely scold me one.. i got 81/100... but i am 5th in class... the reason i am nt happy is because i wanted to ensure tt i can make it in to aerospace... and aerospace.. i heard is onli the top 10% of mechatronics.. and do some maths plz... 10% * 300 = 30... so on average there are 15 classes... so to make it.. i muz be top 3 every subject.. argh!! so stressed... whew.. luckily.. i nv fail my CKT lab test.. although i was one of the lowest..19/30.. but i was so glad tt i nv fail my lab test.. whew! i promise to put more effort nw.. although i dun reali like the teacher!!!.. todae got lectured by my parents.. learned alot todae.. learn how to control my temper more.. i felt tt i sometimes kinda of rude... especially to my parents.. i am sry.. but its always tt kinda of sudden uptight mood... i jus burst out the rude reply.. come back to tink abt it.. daddy was rite to lecture me abt tt... i am sry.. but nt trying to use this as an excuse.. but sometimes i am reali stressed and the tone tt u all talk to me... i always give u all tt kinda of rude ans.. i will try to control myself more.. i promise!.. furthermore.. i reali hope to cut out the habit of scolding vulgarities... i reali hope bao change tt habit also... well.. stop here le.. tml still got sch!!.. HOPE U FIND UR THUMB DRIVE!!!!! take good care my friends.. especially u ar miss s.. hahaha.... exams around the corner!!!
I'm Hugged On 8:01 AM

NOOoOOooOO.. tml sch starts.. this marks the end of my holidaes!!! OMG.. i am so worried tt i dont feel like sleeping.. tml the term test results are coming back.. although they dont hav reali reali significant weightage.. but it will decide whether i am actually cut out in this course.. cause it is my final confidence already.. if it is shattered.. then i dunno wad i shuld do already... i already put in my most for most of the subjects.. passing is nt an option anymore... hiaz.. wad's the use of saeing all these when i am waiting for my results.... hiaz.............. reali wish i can make it into aerospace!!!!!!!! if nt i reali dunno wad to do already... hiaz.. tml stil got sch early.. dang.. i hate mondaes and thursdaes.. such long daes... sad case.. gtg and slp early.. later daddy come out and nag at me already.. sianzation... hope tt all my friends will cheer up... no matter wad happens... i hope u can look forward in life... but of course once again.. i will never understand wad u are going thru... cause i was nv once in ur shoes.. well... u can jus sae action speaks louder than words and how convienent am i down here saeing tt u all muz stay happy... but sincerly.. deep down in my heart.. there is nth i can actually do... but onli to pray sliently tt u all are alrite.. especially bao.. and ting ting...
I'm Hugged On 8:01 AM

Sian... sch is going to start tml... hiaz... so sian sia... once again.. slog and slog and slog... hiaz.. tml i need to go and buy alot of things sia..wah lau.. mondae got test... i dun tink i will do well for my term test... disappointment it shall be... tinking of it makes me sad...:( hiaz... worries, worries and more more more worries!!! when is it going to stop????????????? somebody plz help me... the thoughts of failing my first test is still haunting me...!!! i dun wan my dad to hav tt disappointed face anymore... i haven seen him happy for a v long time.. although he always scold me.. but i noe he cares abt me alot... he is tt kinda of ppl tt dont noe how to express his care... i reali appreciate wad he does for me... i am glad tt i hav such wonderful parents!!!... i reali looking forward to the vacation at the end of the year!( sara.. i am waiting for ur invitation to ur "PERSONAL" chalet.. remember ur promise u made to us and to urself.. jia you!) recently.. i can see.. tt alot of problems are arising from my friends... hiaz.. relationship problems.. unhappiness and stuff... hope everybody can resolve them quickly.. ting ting.. dun be too sad ar??? hahaha... muz face tml wif a brighter face!!! cheer up!!! bao.. dun be too affected by him ok??? jus remember to study hard for ur o's!! i already dunno wad to sae to u already...cause i am nt good wif my words.. but i sincerly wished all the best for u...! study hard and play hard after the exams.. as u said, after ur o's.. u wan to "feng" wif him also can... so look forward to tt guilt free.. nt like me now... so worried abt my results...sobs:'(
I'm Hugged On 1:35 PM

Hahahaha.. todae is my second last dae of my holidaes.. time passes so fast.. so quickly.. 4 daes have passed... v soon.. my new school semester is going to start.. but i jus dont noe y.. i dont wan it to start again... tinking abt my term tests gives me the creeps... tinking of how i am going to spent my next semester... how am i going to cope wif the work.. looking at the guide book..(CKT) i opened and looked.. i understand how to do.. but............... do u wan to even try?? wad phrasor diagrams and rectangular diagrams.. after tt.. i jus dont feel like touching the guide book anymore... and seriously.. having nth to do.. stay at home... can make u crazy.. cause u got seriously plenty of time to daze... and i dunno whether its good or bad for me... but seriously... i tink tt i am so childish... so stupid.... maybe at tt time i was onli considering the fact tt since i chose to remain as friends... but in the end.. u did nt contact me anymore... i was so sad... and so angry... angry tt y i did nt take the other alternative.. since i am going to lose this friendship in the end.. but i already noe the result and i mean although i regret it v much... i noe this is going to hurt me alot.. but i reali wish to talk to u once more....i jus missed u so much... humans are foolish!.. jus look at the irony.. but i jus cant bring myself to hate others.. like for example.. i dun like ppl avoiding me... and since u dont like ppl doing something to u( in this case.. avoiding u...) u dont do it to others.. so i reali cant bring myself to truly hate u ir wadsoever.. i guessed u already noe who i am talking abt already.. i am glad tt he is treating u well.. jus take care of urself okies???? wa.... sunburnt... so hot... LOL.. did nt expect tt to happen though.. i tot nth happened.. my back skin so thin.. LOL.. everytime kenna one... if i onli knew earlier... nw my skin like scales like tt...then i cant even slp properly... so painnn...>_<... i reali dont feel like slping if i can... i dont wan time to fade away... i dont wan my holidaes to end so quickly... actually i sort of missed all my friends.... but they are all so busy... sara = the last time when we watched madagascar.. eileen.. last time i guess is tt time i passed u back ur amaths text book.. miraculously... nv see u in the whole poly otherwise..(wei xiong keeps saeing tt he see u alot of times).. huiting.. once or twice.. and she will grin so much... always happy i can see.. (hope u remain like tt all the time!!) the whole of 4/5... so darn little.. especially all those tt go SP.. i haven seen zeyi for a long time.. nv hear his voice and stuff... pei hua and all the guys... hahaha... take care ppl!!! Bao.. i dont noe wad happened to u recently.. but i seriously hope tt u can pick urself up.. i wan to see the girl tt always laugh and have fun all the time... take care...!
I'm Hugged On 9:01 AM

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa........ all my data is gone... stupid computer.. also dunno wad's going on in there... nt even 3 mths and starting to spoil already... everything tt i had stored in there.. downloaded for the past 3 mths are all gone... nvm lo... jus download again... wahahahaha.. ting come back todae le...(where is my present.. teeehehe...no lahz.. jking onli...) my head is spinning rite nw... terrible headache.. wa..so bored at home lo... further more.. com like tt also... hiaz... I jus felt so alone u noe... i noe tt i will nv understand u.. maybe i am nt putting enuff effort to understand u... well.. i reali hope tt u can be comfortable and talk to me... nt like onli choosing stuff to talk... i dun wish tt any of my friends to talk to me hiding this and hiding tt.. i jus wan u to be straightforward and sae wadever u wan to sae to me.. tt is wad i call a conversation.. and nt hide stuff here and there.. i respect ur decisions in keep the stuff tt u wan.. i am nt expecting u to pour out everything... well.. i reali wish tt our conversations can be relaxed... cause there are many things tt i wan to sae it to u.. but the atmosphere is nt rite...hmm.. hw shuld i sae tt? i mean if u are nt going to tell me the things tt are deep in ur heart.. i cant reali establish a trust to tell u mine.. well.. tt is wad i feel though... i mean its still up to u if u dont wanna sae... (sad to sae... the best conversation tt i ever had with u was last year near christmas.. tt part where we actually.... i mean tt conversation reali helps me put down all my troubles for a moment.. cause wad i kept inside all along was said out.. although i totally regretted it... but for tt moment... i actually felt v comforted...) well.. its all ur decision.. i am nt forcing u or wad... i noe tt u still treat me as a good friend... hahaha... but sometimes i jus wished tt we had both the same priorties in our heart....hahaha... how lucky are u.. to tell u the truth.. i admire u and her so much.. and sometimes.. i am reali jealous.... tt y i hav nt found a friend like u.. maybe it jus takes time... maybe i had already found tt person.. but did nt cherish my chances...i was reali hoping tt she will be the one... maybe i am close.. maybe i am nt...i jus suddenly felt so lonely.. well...i still got great friends near me.. i will cherish them too.. hahaha... but sometimes i reali cannot stand him sia!! wa lau.... the big, brave and mr know it all, the commentator... mr PAP to be... still got wad.. the big planner for the future..young boss of 2005... mr poser... reali pisses me off sometimes... wa lau eh... in one dae... he jus did at least 5 things tt pisses me off.. first he comes my hse wif his sister's laptop... and force me to watch bleach wif him again.. ask me to on bleach for him to watch... i tot somebody said tt it was a sucky show? dun wan to watch it.. then in the end enjoy it so much.. tt he wans to rewatch it again.. then start introducing to freddie like its his anime like tt.. plz lor... dun force ppl to watch wad they dont like lahz.. furthermore its my com.. and its the anime tt i introduced to u.. sucky dont watch lahz.. still ask ppl to watch it wif u for wad... then play hero siege.. act pro.. go -random.. then ask me to open 2 lanes.. in the end.. leak like shit.. then the 2nd time we play.. nobody wans to go for the boss wave... all wan to get the mob and get money onli... wth.. then muradin stage die onli wan me to open 2 lanes for u... tt time i die u also nv open for me.. give me some crap excuses tt u hav lo... then still so loud somemore.. my dad scold me like hell lo... then expect me to off my speaker at ur convienence.. did u ever turn down ur speaker for mine? sae the music v irritating... then after tt my mother asked u to stay for dinner.. u still complained abt the food.. saeing stuff like the fish tastes like potato chips.. eh.. hello.. be blessed tt u have free food served to u ok.. still complain wad... then still act like u noe everything like tt..wad shares of the SIA and so on... plz lor.. dont complain abt them.. if they crumble then no more singapore airlines lo... wad power do u hav to critise wad investments they make... are u the director of SIA? are u the president of SIA? if nt.. plz keep ur mouth shut.. and p.s... i hate ur know it all attitude and even if u one dae find out my blog and happen to noe tt i am riting abt u... plz feel free to come and approach me.. u can critise me back for all i care.. if i dun like wad u do.. i will sae it out. i am tt straightforward.. if u dont like wad i do.. u can always do the same thing back to me.. i am fine wif tt.. and if u like to comment abt a movie so much.. next time u can watch a movie urself.. and comment all to jerome for all i care.. plz.. dun come and tell me stuff like tt... i am sick and tired of hearing all tt...
I'm Hugged On 6:40 AM

hahaha.. todae go watch fantastic four... hahahaha... reali fantastic... i like the human torch.. LOL.. dunno y.. although he is awfully childish... hahahaha.... well... finally my holidaes are here.. at long last.. hahahahaha... at last i can sit back and relax a little while.. hope i get the results tt i wan... zZz... plz.... pray hard.. hahaha.. ting is on her way nw.. take good care wor.. hahahaha... i dunno y i feel excited for her.. hahaha.. the holidae atmostphere.. hahaha.. well... she got her own stuff.. and i got mine!!.. well.. blog til here le.. nth much happened todae... take care!
I'm Hugged On 1:40 PM

SO LONG... TODAE IS SO LONG... OMG... DREAM TOO LONG!!!....HAHAHA.. play hero siege all the way... SO MANY TIMES AND TIMES AND TIMES UNTIL I DREAMING OF HERO SIEGE!!!! OMG... HELP ME.. I AM TINKING HW MANY TIMES I CAN PLAY HERO SIEGE TML.. LOL... PLAY! PLAY! PLAY!.... HAHAHAHA... lalalalala...( oh ya.. conquer online sux actually.. or actually.. i dont see the fun in it) saw jie sheng todae... well.. he was in a good mood.. can see.. so nice to see him doing quite well.. stress self once again.... see us onli feel so guility.. LOL... hahaha.. dun talk abt it here... dont make u pai sei... and another reason is for tt particular person who likes to read this blog.. haha.. tt person shuld noe who i am refering to.. haha.. forget him ba.. i noe its difficult... but u muz try!!! dont anyhow imagine things already.. things do nt always go ur way... well.. at last... something off my heart.. thank u for talking to me.. LOL.. i needed somebody to pass on my burden.. hahahahahahaha... well.. holidaes over le.. i guess u shuld work doubly hard nw.. looking forward to the next phone conversation wif u the next week.... take care...!
I'm Hugged On 9:50 AM

Yes.. finally over le.. PLAY! PLAY! PLAY!!!! (btw.. jia you sara.. and all those ppl who still hav exams going on!!!..) hahaha.. nw time is on my side.. i can lay off homework for a little while..(worked so hard lo... especially my maths.. hope my efforts pay off...)*fingers crossed* hahaha... but for nw.. playing spree... huiting haven finish exams go book tickets to go genting wif her friends already....(sounds so fun.. but i dont like travelling.. home sweet home is the best!!! there got everything tt i wan within my reach.. or to be exact.. u can sae i lazy ar.. LOL...) long journey somemore.. from saturdae nite to tuesdae nite...(i am going to miss u so bad.. :'(SOBS:'(..) i am nt trying to make use of u lor... sae until like i am some criminal... hahaha... HMPH... anyways.. enjoy urself there...! todae is sophia's POP i tink... all the best sophia... sry sara.. i nt going down.. u shuld noe y.. LOL.. hahaha... i jus like to lay back and relax at home.. nth to do also nvm.. todae i am in the mood to day dream..lalala... drift off the dream land!.. hahaha........... and i jus found out tt i jus fell in love wif somebody tt i am nt supposed to... well... i keep telling myself tt i shuld nt be doing tt... well... sometimes its jus so difficult to keep it inside u u noe... hahaha.... but i guess perharps i am nt going to sae ba... cause once again.. i cherish friendship more then anything else.. i dont wan to attempt to lose her again.. ever again.. hope tt history dont repeat itself can le... take care my friends!
I'm Hugged On 12:39 AM

Hiaz.. so stress lo... i scared i nt enuff time to revise... die le lahz.. slack too much already... term test coming already.. todae still go and watch movie... War of the worlds.. haha.. it was nice.. well.. once again.. the movie was commented alot by the great critic... who has alot of complains.. if u tink making a movie is to let u critise.. then go and die... appreciate ppl's effort in making a movie.. next time when u make a movie and let ppl critise.. see hw u feel.. u faggot.. then plz dont act like u noe the whole world by jus reading a few pages of the encopedia(or hwever u spell tt word.. i am too tired and lazy to find the correct spelling.. cause its something like 4.53am... sundae) another sleepless nite... kaoZ... argh!!! so stress.. anyways... i jus wan to let u noe.. tt nt onli the 2 ppl are important in my heart.. u are also one of them equally important to me... or should i sae 2 ppl including u... the other one i reali give up already....haha.. sry.. tt dae nv concentrate and talk to u.. i feel so guilty nw.. i promise tt i will cherish tt the time tt u can spend to talk to me... so sry... haha... hope tt we are friends forever... but again... i reali reali dont wish to talk already... i dont noe whether i am rite to sae this... but i find tt this sentence is quite rite.."Better to keep ur mouth shut then to open it and remove all doubt" nt tt i am saeing tt i got nth to sae.. but i suddenly feel tt opening ur mouth somehow reali reali shows ur flaws.. and i am going thru an unstable mode nw... i reali dont wan to sae the wrong things.. or to be exact and tell u the truth.. i reali dont wan u to change the impression of me in ur heart...(after tt incident.. i found of hw an impression of one person can affect one so much) i noe i am seriously flawed... but i reali hope i can change... but changes jus dont come easy... so nw i reali dont mind jus listening to u talk all dae long abt ur things.. and secondly.. it reali helps me to take my mind off my problems... and btw... dont keep things from me lehz... tell me ma... u state in ur blog then nv sae.. make me so tempted to noe.. haha.. anyways.. if u reali wan to sae anything abt us.. jus go ahead.. i will nt be sad or anything.. dont worry.. i reali reali forgot abt her already.. so dont worry... i muz give u face also ma.. i forgot abt her but nt u ma.. so its unfair to let u nt to sae things abt her.. haha... to me.. i will reali like u to tell me everything if it is possible... hahaha.. tt is my meaning of close friends... as for the other one... i reali dont noe wad to sae to her already... i am kinda of jealous..deep down in my heart... cause when talking abt priorities.. i treat her one as one of the close friends.. but it seems to me tt its nt the other way around... hiaz.. missed out so many things tt i wan to sae.. so bo bian muz post here.. haha.. it seems to me tt i will like to give up already lo.. u are my last hope.. HAHAHA... since both their characters almost kinda of same..so i tink i can already forsee the future already... if she reali wans to do tt.. then i guess i will be more sad than ever... although we onli noe each other for quite a short period of time.. but i guess our friendship is more firm then compared to her...(i am nt reali sure whether i am rite though..i am so confused also... deep down in my heart....)ok.. go and slp le.. tml cannot waste half a dae sleeping...
I'm Hugged On 1:40 PM