Y does this always happen to me.. firstly, my CKT lab test i gone... i tink i failed my first test. Seconly, i fare badly for my maths test... see the smug face of him turns me off...(lucky i was nt there to see) thirdly, my hopes were dashed when i placed high hopes on my CKT quiz and it turned out to become a disappointment... i am so extremely sad... i dont mind being under smart or hardworking ppl.. but it feels so angry to noe that somebody who did nt turn up almost every single dae can do better than u.. eston said tt this kind of ppl wont last long.. but its jus so unfair... y? y cant things jus turn out the way tt i always wanted to... y things always go the opposite of wad i wan.. no matter hw much hard work i put in.. i dont get the results... i am so tired, exhausted u can sae... mentally and physically... everything i muz be below others.. y cant i shine.. u can sae tt i am pessimistic or wadsoever... i dont care... even she is gone nw.. sooner or later.. i dun tink i will ever sae also... its jus tt i dont wish to lose another friend anymore... i dont wan history to repeat anymore... i cannot pick up the courage to sae it to u cause i cherish friendship more than anything else... i am so tired... i wish i can jus fade away from this world without a sound, a trace... i am nw clinging on to this world desperately because of my parents.. they hav always high hopes on me but i always tend to disappoint them... i jus feel like i am in an aeroplane crashing down.. desperately holding on to my seat so tt i will nt be flinged away when the plane impacts the ground... life is jus so ironic... i tried to live optimistically.. but i will tend to fail every single time... its always so hard to pick myself up when i am down.. maybe wai sum is rite in saeing tt we always hurt those tt makes us smile but fight so hard for those tt makes us cry... i give up already... i onli wished tt nth has happened b4.. ignorance is bliss... i will nt interfer in ppl's life anymore... if u wan.. take the initiative to talk to mi.. i dun wish to be an obstacle in ur work or wadever.. i am so tired... damn tired tt i cant even walk straight...
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