Todae was another completely nice dae.. but i reali dont hav the mood to do anything.. so depressed.. firstly.. it was the maths test.. argh.. i shuld hav followed my instincts.. but pity.. which i did nt.. so i already lost 18 marks out of 40.. i dont tink i can reali score like the last time anymore..(well.. although maths is nt my core.. but i tink tt at least if i put in effort.. i will do well too.. actually to tell u the truth.. i suck at science when i was in sec 3... so dont come along and sae tt i got talent in science tt's y i can do so well..) argued wif my mother over a trival matter todae.. which i shuld nt.. i always cant comprehen y i am treating her like tt.. but sometimes wad she saes at the moment is jus so sickening..(i am so sick of complaining..) when she complains.. all the sarcastic remarks all come out..(i cant stand tt...) so in a fit of anger.. i argued wif her.. i am reali sry.. i shuld nt be doing tt.. todae lesson i wasnt even there.. my body is there.. but my mind is nt.. tinking abt alot of things.. my mind will suddenly drift away... actually i was paying attention.. then i will slowly drift away... by the time i notice tt i drifted away.. the teacher is already at another section.. problems which i am unable to solve though.. so i guess i muz put it down.. tell u guys wad.. i hav a bad feeling though.. tt history will repeat itself.. its the same thing tt happened quite recently.. although nt reali recently.. tinking of ways to avoid it.. and ppl starts giving mi the cold shoulders..(well.. i told u so sara.. nw is the ans y i wanted to avoid her in the first place.. cause i reali cannot stand the feeling of ppl avoiding mi.. i rather avoid tt person tt let the person avoid mi.. well.. at least i hav some prepartions..i totally give up on tt person.. well.. maybe our "friendship" is jus worth like tt.. haha.. in simple terms.. our relation is jus like the song by sylvester sim - suo yi..)( cant put the lyrics here guys.. sry.. blog translate all the wrong words)"http://www.geocities.com/musicpara/SylvesterSim.htm#suoyi" <-- look from there.. although i dont like him singing.. but its quite touching.. cause it reflects perfectly on the "friendship" tt we had.. i was tinking tt when can i stop whining and complaining abt the troubles tt i hav to my friends.. maybe i may like this lifestyle tt i am going thru nw.. jus shut up and listen to wad others got to sae.. make no friends nor enemies.. jus go along wif ur life.. anyways. i dont hav the capability to make the ppl around mi happy..(i dont wish to burden others anymore... i dont wish to hurt myself anymore.. i am nt trying to sae tt i am perfect and i can nag at others.. perharps this is the last time i will lament abt all this.. so sick and tired of everything..ppl who read this can sae anything tt they wan.. i jus trying to sae wad i feel..) nw i onli can count on the last person.. if that person also left mi.. then i tink there is no more reasons to make friends anymore.. maybe i am jus a loner.. stand alone and walk alone..
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