OMG!!!!!... its true!!! THERE IS A GAY IN OUR CLASS!!! HELP ME!!!! i am starting to hate him... *speechless* totally!!! i was like so irritated by him lo.. sick guy.. keep touching me... kaoZ... i tell u... i am especially in a bad mood these daes.. i am trying to control my temper and i could snap anytime... so u better nt come too close.. with continuous 2 nites wif onli 4 hrs of sleep.. would u snap? and tt stupid guy keeps touching me... i feel like breaking his hand sia... but of course.. we are all grown ups.. and we dont resort to violence... but i reali feel like breaking his arm.. i cannot stand it anymore... but of course wif all due respect.. he is my senior.. but once again... when he touch my butt... i feel like tearing him apart.. piece by piece.. todae i was kind enuff to push him away... idoit... i sit where he will shift his place and come to sit beside me.. i know me means well.. seeing me so lonely staring into blank space(ppl who noe me.. the reason is because i nv slp well or nv at all) but he damn sick lo... tinking back at the times where i treated him well cause he was from mynammar.. and somemore i wan him to hav a good impression for his stay in singapore or rather let him feel a part of us when he study instead of being a foreign student.. but THIS IS TOO MUCH!!!(i dun see girls doing tt to me..-_-"" y muz it be a guy) SICK ASS!!!!!!!!!! i am going to snap... i am going crazy... on the verge of tearing someone already.. todae.. the ultimate disappointment... my d fund test.. 12/20.. tt is 60% for those who dont noe how to count... wad the hell was that? i was too confident that i will do well.. this jus sux totally... i hav no more motivation to study anymore.. i am so exhausted.. it's jus so discouraging... to see such results... i promise tt if that stupid gay ever lay his hands on me again.. or to be exact.. my butt.. his dead.. he is so dead that he wished that his mother nv bore him... I HATE GAYS!!!!!!!!! looking at them jus turns me off... DISGUSTING, DISGUSTING, DISGUSTING, DISGUSTING... i jus wished that i had a punching bag... then i will tear it apart.. todae the first victim.. my classmate.. hakim... jus after my free access lab period... i was so disappointed cause the drawing i did wrongly then everyone is going off already... so sad.. wasted my time.. then suddenly i found out tt the door cannot move... then i tried to push down the knob again.. its stuck.. i tot i jus saw half my class go out using tt door? so i gave the door a good push... it still wont open... tt's it.. my fuse blow and "wham" i kicked the door... then hakim start coming out from the bottom of the door... he did nt expect me to kick the door so hard.. but i reali dont noe tt he is behind the door... then everyone from the opposite class all look outside.. finding out where tt sound is coming from... an u idoit... lucky owyoung told me tt u idoit badmouth me... i tot u changed for the better.. but warn u first ar.. u dont wish to end up like the gay rite?
I'm Hugged On 8:04 AM
My term test are coming... argh... i feel so sloggish.. dont even feel like study.. so exhausted... so slacking... and its jus next week.. i reali hope tt i can do well.. well.. i cant always hope and wished tt it come true.. of course i muz put in effort... todae is my last slacking dae.. from tml onwards.. i am going to study all the way... my insomnia is back again..(i dont noe whether i spelt tt correctly...i suck at english...) hope its going to be a short one.. i cannot afford to hav one at this period of time.. cause my term tests are coming... i guess the "knockout pills" will do the job... well.. ppl sae tt its nt good... but look at yesterdae... i was sitting at the living room and staring at blank space.. hoping tt i will go to slp.. but i did nt.. tears jus welled out of my eyes(i did nt cry -_-") i wasnt tinking abt any stuff either... jus hoping i will go to slp.. and it seems to me tt i wasnt even tired during todae's class... btw.. i hav a bad news... our target classmate has been found... A GAY!!!.. at last.. after 4 weeks of torture... and somemore i tink he dont hav much friends... and furthermore... he is from mynmmar... OMG... he keep touching me.. tt is so like disgusting... but i cannot do anything to him lehz.. jus dont go near him lo.. no choice.. ren more few weeks... then i dont tink i will see him tt often anymore.. maybe i treat him well among all the other ppl and i got meat... tt's y... YUCKS!.. tinking abt it makes mi wan to vomit my dinner... I AM STRAIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! furthermore... using this topic here.. i will like to talk more abt good treatment and friendship... a friendship isnt established jus because u got tt person's contact number in the phone book, talked to tt person more than 50 sentences and gone out at least on one outing... tt isnt friendship... if tt is friendship.. then i tell u... i dare to sae at least half of bedok are my friends.. all the uncles and aunties from shops downstairs my hse.. most of the stalls at the 85 market are all my friends... furthermore even hw well u treat the person.. the person will nt even noe anything... the person dont even cares.. ppl will onli care when wad they took for granted is gone.. anyway.. its nt tt i wan to take this choice.. i am the willing party.. ppl choose to ignore mi.. so whos problem isit nw? ppl ignore mi and its my problem? i jus dont see the sense in it.. come on..u noe me.. i am nt tt type of goody guy tt will talk slowly and nicely over this sick topic... but jus look at tt... i dont tink i can even call it "i tink she still treats u as a gd friend".. come on... i tink ppl from fred's class also on better terms wif mi than her lo... who cares abt being wif her the rest of my life.. when u can even sustain the basics of the basics.. a friendship.. as i said.. a relationship is something which is jus a higher level of friendship... like i care tt i will like being wif her the rest of my life... Between hate and love.. it is onli a thin line drawn.. i am nt tt kind tt will also rite all the nice nice things.. sae it in a nice manner and so on... i am so tired.. so tired... i dont dig literature, cant rite like u.. words contain meaning... nw onli left u onli.. the rest are all gone nw... even the one tt was added in recently is going to be gone soon.. trust my instincts... take a look her... jus for example.. i will give u an option, to go out wif eileen or to go out wif me.. who would u choose.. u can onli choose one.. cannot choose both... obviously u noe the option in ur heart.. this is all abt prioritiers.. she has her own great friends.. i hav been waiting for her the whole evening... jus to sae hi... (once again.. this is abt treatment.. u treat the person well.. the person may nt treat u well back in return.. i dont give a damn abt returns.. but y cling on to a one sided friendship.. as i said.. both of them are like blood sisters.. both the same kind one.. start new life and jus move on...) i guess i cannot count on her anymore.. like i used to last time.. as long as tt one dae the misunderstanding is nt cleared.. there will always be a gap between us... u can sae tt i am tinking too much... but to put this simply... hav u ever tot abt this b4? i am such an idoit...
I'm Hugged On 8:21 AM
Y does this always happen to me.. firstly, my CKT lab test i gone... i tink i failed my first test. Seconly, i fare badly for my maths test... see the smug face of him turns me off...(lucky i was nt there to see) thirdly, my hopes were dashed when i placed high hopes on my CKT quiz and it turned out to become a disappointment... i am so extremely sad... i dont mind being under smart or hardworking ppl.. but it feels so angry to noe that somebody who did nt turn up almost every single dae can do better than u.. eston said tt this kind of ppl wont last long.. but its jus so unfair... y? y cant things jus turn out the way tt i always wanted to... y things always go the opposite of wad i wan.. no matter hw much hard work i put in.. i dont get the results... i am so tired, exhausted u can sae... mentally and physically... everything i muz be below others.. y cant i shine.. u can sae tt i am pessimistic or wadsoever... i dont care... even she is gone nw.. sooner or later.. i dun tink i will ever sae also... its jus tt i dont wish to lose another friend anymore... i dont wan history to repeat anymore... i cannot pick up the courage to sae it to u cause i cherish friendship more than anything else... i am so tired... i wish i can jus fade away from this world without a sound, a trace... i am nw clinging on to this world desperately because of my parents.. they hav always high hopes on me but i always tend to disappoint them... i jus feel like i am in an aeroplane crashing down.. desperately holding on to my seat so tt i will nt be flinged away when the plane impacts the ground... life is jus so ironic... i tried to live optimistically.. but i will tend to fail every single time... its always so hard to pick myself up when i am down.. maybe wai sum is rite in saeing tt we always hurt those tt makes us smile but fight so hard for those tt makes us cry... i give up already... i onli wished tt nth has happened b4.. ignorance is bliss... i will nt interfer in ppl's life anymore... if u wan.. take the initiative to talk to mi.. i dun wish to be an obstacle in ur work or wadever.. i am so tired... damn tired tt i cant even walk straight...
I'm Hugged On 8:11 AM
At last.. my com is revived.. stupid virus.. made mi lose all my songs... hiaz.. i lost abt 544 songs sia.. heart pain.. zZz... lucky i still got some in my mp3 player.. if nt i die already.. LOL.. but like tt also nt bad.. at least nw i noe wad songs nice.. can dl back... last time download randomly one.. kaoZ.. all the sucky songs all come out.. so nw.. its all abt choices.. LOL.. i v scared tt i get caught sia.. even if one song fine 20 dollars or 1 dollar i also die...(do ur maths guys...) hiaz.. this is the third dae tt i am home alone.. todae go out wif fred and chunfeng to play pool(i still hav a feeling tt huiting dont like it.. HAHA...i promise nt to do it again.. LOLX) actually.. meet up wif them to talk and crap around wad.. so long nv see chunfeng.. and its a miracle.. chunfeng noes hw to play DOTA.. LOL.. even better than jerome..(jkjk.. jerome.. jia you wor..!) haha... thx to him.. we won..(hehe.. down tower is his credit.. killing is mine.. LOL.. reached whicked sick until run wrong way and die...zZz..) LOL.. but its ok.. at least we won.. hehe... so tired... eat japanese meal.. haha.. (i ate the breaded fish sara... hehehe^_^. it was so nice....wowow...) after tt i saw weixiong at the bus stop.. haha... he jus watched finish initial D and want to go his friend's hse to drink and look at girls...zZz.... then he hao lian his maths.. full marks..zZz.. talk to him sometimes waste of time.. but when u look at a guys point of view.. his quite a nice perons.. LOL.. but nt when u are in a rush.. he can be a bother sometimes.. HAHA... jkjk... *yawnzZz* so tired................. todae the whole dae i was jus trying to format my com and stuff.. dont even hav time to do my own things.. todae.. nth much lo.. then i jus found out tt the place where i got the "corn" is recovering.. but i still abit scared... lets jus hope the black lines i see are jus blood vessels... i wish.. i jus wish... i dont wish to go thru another surgery wif 16 injections.. zZz... tinking of it gives mi chills down my spine... haha.. end here lo... so ironic... i was actually tinking of u when i was eating bread.. tinking hw u said to mi tt spreading more butter on ur bread.. the more u spread the nicer it will be... hiaz.. i dont wish to tink abt it anymore.. jus leave it alone.. plz get out of my life.. i dont wan u to come along and jus sae tt u care abt mi and stuff... i am so tired to care abt it... take care my friends...
I'm Hugged On 11:17 AM
Hiaz... todae when for the undressing of the bandage.. reached there around 11.30pm.... but to be amazed...i woke up at 9.40am.. without an alarm clock or anything.. no disturbance or wadso ever..
i jus woke up(ok.. maybe to pee.. high tide ar...) but come to tink abt it.. i onli had 7 hours of slp.. and i did nt even take a nap at all.. (ok.. i did... err.. dozed off when i was counting d fund.. i was so tired tt i came up formulaes or my own.. LOLX.. cannot solve one.. but i dont noe y i still continue to count wif my own made formulae..HAHA)wa.. looks like i missed out alot of lessons todae.. hiaz.. so0 sad sia.. no choice but to study at home myself.. haha... well.. nobody is at home.. once again.. i am home alone.. sian.. they will onli be back on saturdae... and i tink at nite one.. they went KL.. i cannot contact them.. but mummy did call mi from overseas.. (going thru alot of difficulties.. she got thru at last... so glad to hear her voice..) i am going crazy at home.. i keep talking to the wall.. and furthermore.. todae i am nt myself.. i am damn motivated to study myself.. keep studying.. nt even tempted to play at all... maybe isolation is good for mi eh.. jus like the good old times.. when i lived alone.. haha.. so quiet the hse is.. but nvm.. i m used to it already.. LOLX... MY COM IS SPOIL... OMG.. AT A TIME WHEN I MOST NEEDED IT!! OMG... CANNOT PLAY MARTHON ANYMORE.. MY DREAMS AND HOPE ARE SHATTERED..Hope tt my com get well tml.. hope my uncle can make it.. sian sia... THIS SUX.. i am nt desperately using my dad's com.. seriously.. i reali need some1 to talk too... thanks to ting ting , carmen, wai sum, jennifer and huiting to talk to mi.. if nt.. i siao already.. LOL.. as for u.. i got nth to sae already.. i had already given up on.. although u constantly flashes up in my mind... i jus cant keep tinking hw stupid i am.. but this is mi... but jus one dae... plz get out of my life.. i hope no more ppl will be hurt like mi anymore... scars tt will nv heal...
I'm Hugged On 9:36 AM
Wa... todae finally.. gotten rid of wad i had hope to get rid of for the past 2 months.. finally.. a burden off my shoulders... todae i finally raised enuff courage to go for the minor surgery... well.. a moment of pain rather than prolong pain rite? i decided to eat before going for it.. cause i got a feeling tt its going to be so painful till i dont hav the appetite to eat anymore after the surgery.. well.. so i ate a plate of char kway teow.. lolx.. honestly.. it suck.. i dont noe y i often go there and eat when i was young.. but no choice.. dont reali got other food to eat already.. LOLX.. so calmly finished up my food.. then after tt proceeded inside the clinic.. waited for abt half an hour like tt.. then finally.. the time has come... enter the room where i see the doctor.. well.. she is a nice lady.. wif 7 kids.. (i heard tt from my mother one.. i nv see personally..haha.. but driving a MCV sure comes wif a big familiy...LOLX..) she greeted mi.. asked me wad happened and after tt said tt my "corn" was infected.. so called viral wart or something like tt.. zZz.. so she said tt i had to brace myself while she cuts the corn and let the "pus" inside leak out... well.. i dont like the word "brace" but i've got no choice but to do so.. haha... then after tt i proceeded to the next room to sit down on the bed.. v soon comes a attendant.. (she's quite pretty.. teehehe.. or shuld i sae.. CUTE?.. HAHA...) ok.. lets get this aside.. LOLX.. then the doctor starts coming in to peel off the skin of the "corn".. it hurts ok.. ok.. let mi explain wad is a "corn" first.. its a viral infection.. jus like ringworms and so on.. but it is grown normally on the sole of the feet.. furthermore.. mine is infected..(cause i nv take good care of it.. hehe...) so the feeling is jus like u placing a thumbtack on the floor and u jus keep stepping on it as u walk.. tt's the feeling.. walking wif toes everydae.. tt feeling sux okies.. nw still need to do tt a little.. cause it reali hurts.. so there she goes.. peeling off the skin with the tweezers.. or wadever tt u call tt.. and a scissors.. then applying the antiseptic lotion.. DETOL.. then after tt she goes out.. attending to the next patient.. hiaz.. the suspense is reali killing mi lo.. LOLX.. then suddenly the attendant comes in again.. this time she opens the cupboard and take out a syringe and a few bottles of medcine.. err... when i saw the syringe, my goosebumps start coming out.. i tot its onli one jab.. still nt so serious.. keep telling myself nt to worry about anything.. as long as i pulled thru tt one jab.. its over.. LOLX.. then she comes in.. and u noe wad did she sae..? she said " i am nt going to lie to u.. but this injection will reali hurts.." WOW..-_-"" tt's some facts.. at least she told mi the truth and i had some preparations for it.. well.. imagine.. those tt take BCG when we are primary 6.. did tt hurt? well.. as the sole of our feet have more nerve endings than most of the other body parts, the sensation of feelings are more stronger there.. so imagine.. something tt is more painful than BCG.. WOW.. but its ok.. cause i tink BCG onli got 1mml.. or something like tt.. well.. tt injection was filled wif anesatatic..(dunno hw to spell..) so she injected 4 times.. each time 0.5mml.. so tt the medcine can take effect faster.. wow.. i almost fainted? my head was spinning all along due to the pain.. then after tt she told mi to lie down.. and relax myself.. while we talked abt sch.. i told her wad i do in sch and so on.. blah blah blah.. until she keep proding mi wif the scissors... and ask mi whether its painful or nt.. well.. of course its painful lahz.. then she said tt the anesatetic has nt settled in yet.. so she asked mi to wait while she attends to the other patients... when she comes back.. she used the scissors to prod the corn again.. then of course, once again.. i dont feel any difference.. furthermore.. i feel more pain even when nobody touching it.. still suffering from the aftermath of the injection(i dare to sae i am a whim or a pampered kid.. but take a look at this ok.. i am nt tt type tt will scream and shout out of small matters... imagine this.. u are wide awake.. the somebody gives u 4 injections on ur wound.. furthermore.. keeps pulling out the dead skin surrounding ur wound..well.. hw does tt feel?) then once again.. she decided.. to do another injection of anestatic.. i was like ....-_-"""".. no choice.. its either pain nw or pain later.. so once again.. i braced myself to accept another 4 shots of injection.. ok... lets do some maths.. tt will be 8 shots of something like BCG injections.. by tt time i was already pale and breathless already.. cold sweat starts coming out from my legs and hands.. my limbs are already "cold" already.. due to the pain.. then my mother steps in... to take a look at the situation.. haha... mummy.. u are the best.. i luv u.. she comes in and encourages mi.. standing by my side and let mi hold her hand..(i almost crushed her hand due to the pain.. sry...) again.. this time when she goes in deeper of the "corn" the pain is more intense.. then again.. she decides to inject another 4 shots.. (for the courtesy of ppl who are lazy to count.. tt is 12 shots..) by tt time.. i was already like closing my eyes.. and the world is spinning.. i dont even hav the strength to sit up and watch the surgery anymore.. then she continues to pull and pull.. she saes tt my skin is too thick -_-".. then as she goes in and saes tt she can see the inside already.. she gave mi another 4 jabs...!!! ( tt's total 16 jabs altogether... normally.. ppl onli need 1 time.. -_-""" i need 16 times more than the others..) after tt 16 jabs.. tears welled out of my eyes continuously..(of course i am nt crying.. well.. reflex action?? i was in extreme pain..) then after tt she began wif the laser treatment.. well.. its something like a soldering iron.. i tink u guys noe wad i mean.. except tt the tip is a piece of wire.. by tt time i was already half-conscious.. or shuld i sae tt i am half dead... all i can see wif my half opened eyes are smoke rising.. and u are wondering.. where do u get smoke. the answer is tt she is using the thing to cut my skin.. in the process due to heat.. there is smoke produced.. OMG.. without the 16 shots.. i guess i may die already.. LOLX.. then after tt i tried to sit up and look.. cause i dont feel pain anymore.. the anestatic has kicked in.. then i was like half dead mode.. so i dont noe wad is she doing.. so i wanted to sit up and look.. but my mother asked mi to lie down... cause its nt reali the scene tt i wan to see.. she saes tt there is alot of blood and disgusting "pus".. as she was a nurse last time.. she was used to this scene.. and the attendant was like so afraid to even touch it.. so i guess its quite scary ba.. in 5 more mins.. she finished everything.. wad i see is onli a whole tray of bloody cotton wool and bloody gloves.. then the wound is dressed up.. finally, it is completed.. wow.. i sit up.. to find tt the whole bed is wet wif my pespiration.. and i still dont dare to walk properly.. although she told mi tt it is alrite to step on the ground... then i cannot even walk properly.. she was so nice to help mi massage my calve..so as to enhance the blood circulation.. meanwhile i waited outside to collect my medcine and medical certificate.. the pain is killing mi.. especially the four points where the 16 shots were injected.. on the way home.. i even need the support of my mum.. (mum.. i love u) haha.. tml they going to KL already.. once again.. i am home alone. but she jus cannot stop worrying abt mi.. haha.. they are afraid tt i nv take care of the wound and then it grows back again..*touch wood*.. i dont wan another repeat of this incident again anymore.. i hope daddy and mummy enjoy their holidae wor... haha... i going to miss sch.. doctor gave mi 2 daes MC cause she dont wan mi to walk around too much.. afraid tt the wound may tear and worsen again.. argh!.. i am going to miss a lot of important lessons.. drawing - i tink they are going to start using the computer to draw.. i wil miss tt first lesson... maths - i will miss functions... hiaz.. dont even understand.. Digital fundimental - i will miss the new topic i tink.. KAOZ..somemore i will miss the quiz.. hope tt the shanghai tutor will allow mi to take the quiz.. Pretty PLZZZZ? i wan my 10% of my CA! i miss my friends.. (except for those 2.. but due to improvement in conduct.. they are alrite nw.. at least they nv sae anything..) miss all my friends.. all my secondary sch friends.. sry but u are nt included in the list.. i dont even give a damn whether u are reading this or nt.. u stupid hypocrite.. i reali regret the time tt i spend wif u.. complete waste of time... jus get out of my sight for nw.. so much abt caring for u in the past and encouraging u... nw u moved on and there is no need to care abt old friends anymore..? u may give the excuse tt ur handphone spoil, v busy, father use handphone.. like i care? do u tink i give a damn abt it? as for v busy.. dont give mi tt excuse.. there is a v simple thing called the sms.. the first s stands for "short".. well.. since its short.. can u reply mi when u go to the toilet, in between breaks and so many other times.. but did u? NOOOOOOO. u did nt.. so for nw.. jus get out of my sight.. i dont wish to see u anymore.. plz.. dont drag ur boyfriend into this.. dont make mi hate him also.. i shall stop here.. so late le.. 2.55am.. take care my friends...(ps.. hi jerome)
I'm Hugged On 9:13 AM
Todae was another completely nice dae.. but i reali dont hav the mood to do anything.. so depressed.. firstly.. it was the maths test.. argh.. i shuld hav followed my instincts.. but pity.. which i did nt.. so i already lost 18 marks out of 40.. i dont tink i can reali score like the last time anymore..(well.. although maths is nt my core.. but i tink tt at least if i put in effort.. i will do well too.. actually to tell u the truth.. i suck at science when i was in sec 3... so dont come along and sae tt i got talent in science tt's y i can do so well..) argued wif my mother over a trival matter todae.. which i shuld nt.. i always cant comprehen y i am treating her like tt.. but sometimes wad she saes at the moment is jus so sickening..(i am so sick of complaining..) when she complains.. all the sarcastic remarks all come out..(i cant stand tt...) so in a fit of anger.. i argued wif her.. i am reali sry.. i shuld nt be doing tt.. todae lesson i wasnt even there.. my body is there.. but my mind is nt.. tinking abt alot of things.. my mind will suddenly drift away... actually i was paying attention.. then i will slowly drift away... by the time i notice tt i drifted away.. the teacher is already at another section.. problems which i am unable to solve though.. so i guess i muz put it down.. tell u guys wad.. i hav a bad feeling though.. tt history will repeat itself.. its the same thing tt happened quite recently.. although nt reali recently.. tinking of ways to avoid it.. and ppl starts giving mi the cold shoulders..(well.. i told u so sara.. nw is the ans y i wanted to avoid her in the first place.. cause i reali cannot stand the feeling of ppl avoiding mi.. i rather avoid tt person tt let the person avoid mi.. well.. at least i hav some prepartions..i totally give up on tt person.. well.. maybe our "friendship" is jus worth like tt.. haha.. in simple terms.. our relation is jus like the song by sylvester sim - suo yi..)( cant put the lyrics here guys.. sry.. blog translate all the wrong words)"http://www.geocities.com/musicpara/SylvesterSim.htm#suoyi" <-- look from there.. although i dont like him singing.. but its quite touching.. cause it reflects perfectly on the "friendship" tt we had.. i was tinking tt when can i stop whining and complaining abt the troubles tt i hav to my friends.. maybe i may like this lifestyle tt i am going thru nw.. jus shut up and listen to wad others got to sae.. make no friends nor enemies.. jus go along wif ur life.. anyways. i dont hav the capability to make the ppl around mi happy..(i dont wish to burden others anymore... i dont wish to hurt myself anymore.. i am nt trying to sae tt i am perfect and i can nag at others.. perharps this is the last time i will lament abt all this.. so sick and tired of everything..ppl who read this can sae anything tt they wan.. i jus trying to sae wad i feel..) nw i onli can count on the last person.. if that person also left mi.. then i tink there is no more reasons to make friends anymore.. maybe i am jus a loner.. stand alone and walk alone..
I'm Hugged On 10:08 AM
You have been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness,
Lets carry each other's indelible stains,
Dont give up on living!
i held ur hand,
Will i end up losing u someday?
I wan to protect you and your fading smile,so...
Even if the resounding voice calling mi should wither..
Even if the mingling winds shall tell me..
I WILL FIND YOU!
You have been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness, but..
Dont say things like "i cant laugh" or "i hate people",
There's meaning in everything that happens in the unforseen future,
So stay as you are for now, i know there'll come a time when you realise it.
You and me, two are spoken
Someday we will understand each other..
I'm Hugged On 11:45 PM
Wow.. time passes so quickly.. this shuld be my fourth week in the polytechnic.. sry for nt blogging so long.. KaOz.. quite busy these few daes..LOLX... or sorta lazy these daes.. keep tinking abt studies.. i reali dont wish to repeat any of my subjects.. seriously.. i dont wan to waste time taking the subjects which i can pass in one go.. anyway.. i dont wish to make empty promises again to my parents and disappoint them anymore.. so i shall cherish my chances and work v v v hard... i dont wan them to worry abt mi... these few weeks.. went for rugby training.. learn hw to pass and hw to actually play the game..(well.. i certainly wan to make it into the contact team.. cause i reali suck at touch rugby... i so big size.. BLEAHZ) *pray hard* tt i make it into the team.. i reali wan to play rugby!!!!!!!!!! it ROX!!!) haha... the guys are so friendly.. AND BTW.. I MADE MORE FRIENDS..LOLX..anyhw rite??? lolx... cause i at the rugby the coach keep calling mi "big size" BLEAHZ... i dont reali like it.. but no choice.. cause cannot blame him also ma.. he dont noe our name also.. LOLX.. fred kinda of disappointed.. cause he tinks tt he cannot make it into the team then he also abit half hearted to join rugby already.. he is going cause i am going. HAHA.. as for bernard.. i dont noe where he is already.. i dont tink his tt kinda of guy tt will commit himself into a CCA.. LOLX... well.. as for my class.. i am beginning to see the true colours of the whole class.. every single ones... there is another guy which i can add to my IDOITS' LIST... LOLX... HE IS RANKED NUMBER 1.. SO FAR.. HE KEEPS GIVING PPL NAMES AS IRRITANTS.. HAV U EVER TOT TT IF U CALLED PPL IRRITATING? U MUZ BE MORE IRRITATING TO NOTICE TT HE IS IRRITATING? cannot stand him sia... to be more surprising.. i like the malays in my class. they are quite nice ppl... although older than mi... i like them.. haha... andre is a nice guy.. good listener.. LOLX... i seldom praise guys.. overall... i am still so sad tt i cannot reali blend in.. as in mix around in groups in secondary school.. LOLX.. cause everydae.. after sch.. if there is nth on.. i will rush home and do homework.. LOLX(i am advance by everyone at least by 2 tutorials in every subjects, so tt's y u can see mi here!!) i sort of felt tt i am being left out... cause after class they always plan to go and play pool and enjoy themselves.. go and play badminton, tennis and hang around at the student lounge.. but i reali dont hav the mood to do tt... nw i noe hw u feel saraphina.. LOLX..i will try to mix around.. maybe it jus takes time.. HAHA.. jus like hw i forgot abt u.. i dont hav anymore feelings for u anymore.. well.. we shuld a look ahead and walk on.. no use looking back and hav full of regrets.. haha.. i jus wish tt u enjoy ur life and stay happy... sry to use u huiting..u shuld noe wad i mean.. HAHA... i am in a good mood todae.. LOLX.. ACCDENTALLY IN LOVE!!!!! HAHA... TAKE CARE MY FRIENDS.. LESSONS AT 10AM TML...
I'm Hugged On 8:02 AM
Wow.. todae was the dae i was anticipating for a v long time.. haha... this is the first break tt i had given myself since the start of my poly life.. well.. its definetely v stressed.. 2 great examples are eileen and huiting.. lolx.. their projects or assignment alot sia.. lolx... i tink even more then my questions of my homework..lolx.. hiaz... nw still quite alrite lahz.. haven reach their extend yet.. i believe as long as i am advance in my homework.. there will be nth wrong wif mi.. even if one dae i decide to slack on an extremely heavy schedule dae.. i can afford to do tt.. furthermore.. doing advance homework can ensure tt i keep abreast of wad the teacher is teacher.. more easy to remember wad he teach after the lesson.. haha... enuff of homework!! talk abt our outing todae.. haha... actually i jus wanted to walk around.. check out wad's new.. most importantly..WATCH MADAGASCAR!!! haha.. i waited for tt show for a v long time already... anticipating it for a v v v long time.. finally watched it... reali nice.. damn funny.. huiting said i laugh damn loud.. i also nv notice.. but reali.. i am v v happy todae.. haha.. finally.. a gathering where the 4 of us met up.. haha... mummy v gorgeous eh...(huiting said u look more like a adult then a poly student..well.. we are all almost adult.. haha... furthermore.. u are older then mi by one year.. eh.. shuan.. dont be jealous ar.. i praise onli.. dont mean anything hor..bleahZ)... huiting keeps complaining abt her hair.. she looks nice lahz.. then she keep touching her ulcer.. make mi feel painful also.. *ouch*.. haha... as for saraphina... to mi.. like no difference lehz??? dunno?? haha... or oops.. did nt even notice??( but reali wad.. looks like no change also.. haha.. if got chance then tell mi... dont wan u to change anyway.. like the way u are nw.. haha...) the show was nice.. the dinner was nice..(but i tink i ate too much.. bleahZ.. getting fatter and fatter...) eat volcano ramen.. nt reali hot.. but the chilli seeds make my scalp itch alot sia... cannot withstand the temptations to scratch my head...zZz... then eat soft shell crab, eat baby octopus, eat fried prawns, eat tako, eat terriyaki chicken, eat fried tofu, eat dumplings.. tt's abt it le lahz..(u see saraphina.. i can remember perfectly u noe).. btw.. if u are reading this.. i reali dont believe tt u wont touch liqour in ur whole life... haha.... seriously...) nth much le.. haha... walked around.. also nv see anything new.. hiaz.. well.. this concludes my break todae.. so recharged and new, i shall chiong again!!! YAH!!! CHIONG AR!!!!!!!! haha... everyone is happy, i am happy... v long nv like tt already.. todae is a great dae.. haha... well... so we are left wif one person.. who is nt happy.. lots of problems... lots of doubts on wad to do.. well.. no matter wad happens.. i reali hope tt u can stay happy.. forget all the troubles and concentrate in ur work.. ur priority this year is ur o levels okies?? study hard.. got anything jus feel free to call mi... HAHA.. take care everyone.. Luv u all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA
I'm Hugged On 9:31 AM
