Well.. i am jus plain bored.. so decide to blog again... life simply sux... everything is turning upside down.. well... lets take yesterdae for a great example.. 4a.m in the morning..9/5/2005... woke up from a nitemare... dreamt tt i had lost everyone in my life... woke up with pespiration all over mi... cannot fall asleep anymore.. so i woke up and bathe... when i was bathing.. woke my father up.. get scolded... (take note.. how many times.. first time.. at 4.24a.m) for disturbing him from his sleep as he needs to go to work on tt dae.. its ok.. i bathe and silently go out and lie on the couch.. tinking of random events... until 6am.. where he is getting ready for his work.. scold mi again...(2nd time) for no cherishing time to slp.. then later complain to him tt my eyes pain and so on.. lack of slp and tired and so on..(since when i was complaining this to him?) its ok.. he went off to work.. i was still lying on the couch... relaxing.. until morning... 11am.. my mum went to buy breakfast for mi.. got scolded again...( 3rd time) she scold mi for spoon feeding mi everytime.. its ok.. after my breakfast... i go and on my computer.. trying to find something to do to beat this boredom.. then she comes in and scold mi again... (4th time) scodl mi for wasting electricity cause when later i will leave the computer on when i go and bathe... she is also afraid tt the computer will overheat and burn the whole house down... its ok.. i go and bathe.. then after tt go and see doctor.. due to tt painful "corn" on the sole of my feet...so we headed to the polyclinic.. once again... attempted to argue with my whether to take bus or to walk there..when we reach the bus stop then she suddenly said tt walking is nearer..(5th time) once again.. since we are already at the bus stop.. we take bus.. reach there at the polyclinic.. waited for my turn and registration = 1 hr.. meanwhile i went to the toilet... and wash my legs and hands.. i saw an old lady in the male toilet... then suddenly she grabbed my hand and speak to mi in dialect... i dont even understand wad she is trying to sae... but as i wan to proceed to the cubicle she dont wan to let mi go.. so later the cleaner came in and explain to her tt this is the male toilet.. and finally when i asked the cleaner wad she had said... he told mi tt she said tt i was trying to peep at girls in the toilet.. (6th time) scolded for entering the male toilet and wash my hands.. finally.. its my turn to see the doctor... i went in... and she said 3 sentence to mi... in chinese.. "hi, are u Tan zihao?", "wad happened to u", "ok.. its a "corn", please proceed to the counter to make payment" she said tt in chinese.. (for those who noe mi... my chinese sux...) so i asked her again.. where shuld i go? then once again she said tt "chim chim" sentence... well.. u already noe wad is going to happen rite? i got scolded by my mum again(7th time) for not clarifying where to go and wad to do... ok... tt 3 sentence jus caused mi $4.70? no medcine or anything... its still alrite.. proceeded to the counter to make an appointment for the removal of the "corn"... then the lady there told mi tt it has to be at geylang poly clinic.. on 1/9/2005...(excuse mi... if i had to wait till tt date.. i rather die?.. as the pain is already killing mi right now?) its ok... paid $4.70 and wasted 1 and a half hr of my time... so my mother asked mi whether i wan to see another doctor or not..(note: SHE ASKED ME) then i said "ok.. i wan to see another doctor..." SHE SCOLDED MI(8th time) for wasting her money... "do u tink i print money huh? everytime see doctor.."(err... excuse mi? u asked mi whether i wan to see another doctor and this is wad i get?" so we proceeded to find our family doctor at blk 123.. at least he is better, he said more things.. he taught mi how to remove the "corn" by using the corn plaster.. (hope this works.. i dont wan to go thru the "operation") .. well.. wad can i sae... the more he speaks, the more expensive it gets.. $23.00... give mi 4 types of medcine.. and go home.. soon.. my dad return from work... i was in the room, and he is talking to my mum.. the suspense is killing mi.. when am i going to get scolded again? nobody spoke to mi at all.. then suddenly.. my dad came in and scolded mi (9th time) "y tt time when the corn drop out... u muz put tt stupid "green" medcine.. "qing cao you" then everything will be solved.. then now go and see doctor and spend so much moeny.. u happy already lahz..." so after tt we all had dinner.. and he and mum go out for a walk and buy stuff... at last i can hav peace.. as i was alone at home.. then at abt 9pm.. they came back... then mum prepared warm water for me to soak my legs so tt i can stick the plaster after soaking in the warm water.. it is supposed to make the "corn" soft and easy to peel out.. THIS IS THE FUN PART----> when i was sitting down in the toilet.. soaking my feet.. my dad cannot find the torchlight as he needs to repair the telephone.. cause it's spoiled.. HE SCOLDS ME FOR MISPLACING HIS TORCHLIGHT?(10th time).. then meanwhile soaking my feet.. i told mum tt the water is too hot for me... HE SCOLDS ME AGAIN..." Y ARE U SUCH A WIMP... CANT EVEN TAKE A LITTLE HEAT IN THE WATER.."(11th time)...( excuse mi... i am soaking my feet in semi boiling water.. err.. do u jus put ur hands inside boiling water?) OMG... WE ARE GETTING TO THE EXCITING PART.. *SADISTIC LAUGHTER* i asked my mum how long muz i soak my feet in the water... MY DAD HEARD WRONGLY.. AND TOT TT I WAS TELLING HIM OFF TT HE CANNOT REPAIR THE PHONE...(12th time) "U SO "LI HAI" U COME AND REPAIR THE PHONE" (err.. i wasnt speaking to u.. and can u please stfu if u dont listen properly?) at last.. he gave up.. he failed to repair the phone... SO HE CAME AND VENT HIS ANGER ON MI..." Y U NV OFF THE COMPUTER WHEN U ARE WATCHING THE TV?" (err.. i was waiting for u to finish fixing the phone so tt i can once again use the computer... who will wan to use the computer without internet connection?) (13th time) HE SAES " I REALI REGRET GETTING U THIS NEW COMPUTER" FROM THEN... I WAS ON A CURFEW... i cannot use the com over 12am.. cannot use the TV over 12am... so wad can i do other than slp?... well... I MUZ REALI THANK GOD TT THIS IS A PERFECTLY NORMAL DAE TT I AM GOING THRU COMPARED TO THE OTHER DAES.. everynite when i close my eyes.. i can see u going to him... i reali wan u to be by my side always.. everytime when i wan to sleep... ITS THE PEACE TT DRIVES MI CRAZY..." when am i going to be scolded next?" i am nt trying to be a paranoid.. but jus put urself in my shoes for a moment... if u are like tt... getting scolded every moment.. will u wan to live? its jus like a feeling of waiting for death to come to u.. anyway i got nth in this world for mi to hold on anymore.. well... some ppl are jus complaining tt they cannot take the stress.. how bout mi? how bout ppl tt are far worst than mi? well... i reali hope tt u are happy with him... cause u are my onli hope for living in this wretched world....
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